In the Beginning

What I have to tell you is moreso what I have to tell myself. My sincerest desires, in doing so, are for you to know my mind and my heart. I have tried, unsuccessfully, to explain these innermost goings on through normal channels of human interaction. These failures have led to a life spent either in numbing the world out or so wrapped up in it I could not breathe. Now that I approach a more healthy stage I would like to delve into that which has prior hurt myself and hurt others.

So for my own good I hope to realize the oscilating paths of my life have given to me the most bright of futures. And for the good of my ever cherished loved ones - I hope you might realize the benefits of your love and guidence. To those I have hurt and lied to I offer my appologies and most importantly the proceding posts and my fervent desire to live a better life.

I owe to many more than one is capable of reconciling , but I will try.